For some reason I've taken to drinking about half a bottle (70cl) of 'Glenfiddich Special Reserve Single Malt - 12 Years' tonight. I have no idea why. It is however good shit. Glad I got it. Part payment for porn removal from a 'client's' computer, so therefore cost me nowt :-)
Wish I knew the reason. Suppose there doesn't have to be any really.
I've just decided that I want to be loud with someone and I can't, so the only thing to do is to keep drinking... odd logic that! So far tonight I've accidently managed to make myself cry. After looking through some old photos that I scanned ages ago for a photo of me and a big teddy/dog I came across a load of photos of me and grandma and grandad from when I was a kid, when I was happy and didn't have a stress in the world! Oh, to be back there! That's not to say that I'm particularly unhappy mind. 'cause I'm not. I'm full of stress but hey.
Then I started listening to Alanis Morissette... again no real reason, other than it reminding me of the later years of my school life. No idea why that should make me feel safe or whatever! 'cause it was hardly great! Wasn't that bad either I suppose. It's quite cool how music can make you feel certain ways. Not because of the actual music, but because of the association with what was going on with the music at some point where you heard it.
Anyways, time to do something else.
It seems today
That all you see
Is violence in movies
And sex on TV.
But where are those good old fashioned values
On which we used to rely?
Lucky there's a Family Guy!
Lucky there's a man who
Positively can do
All the things that make us
Laugh and cry!
He's a Family Guy!
Nuff said :-)
Posted by: Ed on January 14, 2005 1:55 AMOh dear! Hope you're feeling less miserable now.
I often think it'd be nice to be a child again, with no major problems/worries/deadlines. But there were things that upset me when I was young - just because looking back now they seem very minor doesn't mean they didn't feel big then. And children often want to be older to do things they aren't allowed to.
The grass is always greener on the other side!
Posted by: Rosie on January 15, 2005 9:11 AMOne way out is all you're ever gonna get
From those who'll hand it out don't never let it upset you
Cos they'll put words into our mouths they're making us feel so ashamed
Making us take the blame
Making us cold in the night
Making us question my heart and soul
And I think that it's not quite right
Hey! stay young and invincible
Cos we know just what we are
And come what may we're unstoppable
Cos we know just what we are