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March 11, 2004

I need help

I don't know what type of help I need, but I need it.

I need someone to talk to, I think. Not that I think talking to anyone actually seems to help - that's why I've not really spoken to people much about it before.

I'm a mess! Words of wisdom like 'Get over it! She's clearly not worth it' are all well and good folks, but it doesn't really help when I think that she is and don't seem to be able to convice myself that she's not! For the last month I've been trying to convice myself that! If I could do that then it would be easy!

It's time like this that I wish I had real friends. People who I could talk to about things without being scared that they thought I was a dick. Maybe it's my fault for being paranoid about my lack of real friends and that the world's just out to use me (because I'm easily used, I know that for a fact). Maybe I've got loads of them and I'm so shit that I don't realise it.

Crap, I've probably just offended all of my readers and they all now think I'm a dick. Bugger! I don't mean to offend anyone, as you are all probably really my bestest friend ever.

I just feel that I'm close to no-one anymore (that's a lie, I'm still close to a few people [who I was scared I wasn't!] - you know who you are :)).

Oh I'm sorry, I don't want to piss you off! If you think you are a friend hug me next time you see me. No really! I'm just sad and venting myself.

And this post makes no sense anymore...

Posted by Ed at March 11, 2004 11:50 PM | Depressed |